Hello loves! So this past week I was super stressed. I had been gaining weight, I was eating bad things, and I was stress (emotional) eating.
I think I’ve mentioned in the past that I’m a stress eater. If I don’t eat when I’m stressed, I shop. Both aren’t very good for me! 😀 Last week I did some of both.
I completed 17 days of the 31 day challenge I set up for myself in May. I hit pause…well actually I stopped. Lets be real. When I’m stressed my emotions are all over the place, tack on working more than one job, planning a huge family weekend that is 4.5 weeks ANDDDD…. I’m fried. Here’s what happens to me. I hold things in, let them fester, and then at a certain point I break. I try to do everything on my own until I can’t hold any more and then fall apart. I’m going to be honest for a minute. Sunday found me in tears more than once. Like ugly tears. I was feeling like I’m failing at multiple things and failing people I care about. I recognized that that moment is my anxiety. Yep, it’s still here just waiting for the moment where it will attack!
Sunday night I took a moment to myself. I realized, I’m tired because I can’t relax enough to get decent sleep. I’m frazzled because I’m not sleeping well. I eat to stay awake or fend off emotions. Its a bad cycle that just keeps going and going.
I decided yesterday to go back to what I know works. I did yoga last night. It was glorious, difficult, and refreshing. I’ve lost flexibility that I had but I know I can get it back. I’m so tight in my back, shoulders, and legs that holding some of my favorite poses were a bit painful. But I would just slowly work through it. For 30 minutes last night, I was able to hit mute on my brain. I needed that. My intention is do yoga daily Mon-Thurs. Friday-Mon will be a crazy weekend but hopefully I can keep up with things!
Oh and I lost nearly a pound – .8 to be exact. It’s not a gain and I’m happy with that. I’m also going to do my measurements this week. This is more of a mid-May reset. It’s time to start taking care of myself again.
Some days I wish I was one of those people who can’t eat when I’m stressed!! I’d be a lot skinnier! 🙂 Have a wonderful day and a wonderful holiday weekend!